A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation I feel a bit conflicted writing about my experience of asking the NHS for help with suicidal ideation. The NHS is amazing. Care is free at the point of access and the staff work incredibly hard for not enough money. …

A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation In the past I’ve managed my ideation solely by having a cry, hunkering down and generally retreating from the world and whilst I still do this to some extent, I’ve also realised that I need to have better defences than that. After keeping three years’ worth…

A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicidal Ideation / Suicide 46 days ago I had a day of ideation. I know this because I have an app on my phone which automatically counts up each day unless I press a reset button. This is how I’ve maintained stats for three years on how often and…

A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation I’ve been thinking for a while about what to post next and on my laptop I have a bunch of headings of stuff I want to talk about in no particular order. …

A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation In my last piece I talked about how I was going spend 2023 trying to get to grips with the increasing suicidal ideation I’ve been feeling. …

A series following a professional woman’s experience of reoccurring suicidal thoughts and what she does about them. — TW: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation My name is Emma. I’m a forty something year old mum, autistic, really good at my job, almost never take a day off sick and for the past three years I’ve kept data on how many times I’ve thought seriously about not being alive anymore. …

(With apologies to The Futureheads) This is the first year I’ve not put Christmas decorations up. I don’t hate Christmas, in fact I love it. As a child I adored the time of year. My birthday is two weeks before Christmas so the whole month of December would be an…

As a photographer I’ve got used to not being in photos. Nowadays with social media and the rise of the selfie that’s less often the case for some photographers and a good deal of Instagram feeds don’t show you much beyond the face of the person who wields the camera…

Since the pandemic began I’ve been working at home and apart from a week long holiday with my closest friend’s family in 2020 I haven’t been in any group situations for the past 18 months. One of the things I enjoyed doing in the pre-Covid world was going on residential…